Emotionally Invested

As athletes, we have good days and bad days.  Unfortunately bad days are inevitable, but we do all we can to ensure they don’t occur too often.  Over the past months, and especially in recent weeks, I’ve had some great workouts.  Workouts where I’ve pushed beyond what I thought I was capable of, reached new heights and raised the bar I’ve set myself.  After these sessions, like all athletes, I feel proud of my effort and I’m keen to share it.  Those who follow me on Twitter will know that I’m not averse to the odd #HumbleBrag and here’s the proof!

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4h31' at an average power of 3.8W/kg


Am I actually bragging when I post details of my successful workouts, I’d say not, but I’d be lying if I said sharing it doesn’t give me a heightened sense of accomplishment.  Success breeds confidence and when I perform well, I want people to know.  It’s not ‘smack talk’ or an atempt to intimidate my competition, because let’s be honest, there’s not a single pro worrying that I’ll beat them this season!

As the post title suggests, I’m emotionally invested in the sport and every workout elicits an emotional response, it’s just a question of whether it’s a positive or negative one.  This is somewhat in contrast with my personality, as I generally don’t react emotionally to other things in life.  So why does the result of each workout affect my mood so much?  Maybe it’s because I feel the need to prove to myself that I’ve made the right decision in pursuing a career as a professional triathlete.  If I fail, even in a training session, it goes against everything I’m striving to achieve.  It’s also not just me who’s invested in my success – family, friends and importantly sponsors have showed their faith in my potential and I owe it to them to do well.    

Returning to the first line of this post, bad days are inevitable.  They’re part and parcel of being an athlete, and whether you’re a weekend warrior or a World Champion, you’re not exempt from them.  For the sake of successful longevity in the sport, and for the sake of my emotional wellbeing, I’ve got to learn to take such days in my stride.  That’s not to say that I’ll brush them off and no longer care, but getting down on myself if I have a less than stellar workout serves no purpose.  All I (or anyone) can do is step back, regroup and come back for more.